I felt Palin was unprofessional in a number of ways.
I didn't mention it, as I had so much to critique in my analysis of Palin at the debate and kind of wrote off the top of my head only hrs after watching that debate...but Ive thought of adding it. Her "shout out" and nicknames were incredibly annoying. they keep calling her 'folksy' as if this is the great appeal of her. I don't get it. We're not electing a PTA member, this is a high position in Govt. I could go on and on but Im sure you got the same vibes about her that I did.
I admit I am not a political junkie but my fiance is, and so Ive gotten more into watching CNN/MSNBC in the last several mos and am more up on everything since I spend hrs everyday watching the latest. But still, Im one of those people/women who doesn't understand everything involved in politics, esp finances/economy/wall street etc. although i get that it is bad and the country is in trouble. but aside from that, it goes over my head, its too intricate for me LOL i'm smart but not at that stuff.
Normally I don't advertise my political views in my journal because people are so sensitive and easily offended, quick to become defensive and judge a book by its cover.
There are 2 topics I don't like to go into much, politics + religion. it always causes unnecessary fights and i can't stand arguing with someone especially with someone I hardly know and it is such a huge waste of energy and not what I'm about.
I've got very mixed feelings on these two controversial topics. Really, I am a mixture of things. I get confused by all these labels- conservative, moderate, and liberal and truthfully I'm not sure what the real definitions are when it comes to politics or how to define myself because I believe in morals and values but I am also not a religious fanatic.
I believe in pro choice but I'd never get an abortion unless raped.
I am anti-guns, anti-illegal drugs, and I believe in health care for everyone.
[note: I am on mental disability and i struggle becos the health system is fked, i live in FL, and i cant get the help i need even though I am on SSI and medicaid. I can't get the psychiatrist I need because 'disability' isn't working the way it should. It upsets and angers me, because I am really struggling mentally]
I am against a lot of things- war, violence, killing, violation- most of that comes from being a victim of past abuse so i feel intense about this stuff.
I am for gays right to marry- my brother is gay and I am proud of him and the courage it takes to be 'out' in this country and bravery!
I guess what i am trying to say is I may be defined as a liberal because I am a Democrat but I have strong beliefs and some of those beliefs may be between liberal and conservative- maybe that is what you would call a moderate? I'm not sure really.
All i'm saying is that with politics and beliefs, for me its not all black and white. I don't agree with every aspect of every thing and that is probably why i don't get too deeply into politics. It is too frustrating + triggering [I get easily worked up because I am a passionate soul]!!!!!
Showing posts with label politics. Show all posts
Showing posts with label politics. Show all posts
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
'maverick' and 'nucular' - repeat after me.
i lost track of how many times sarah palin used the word MAVERICK. we laughed everytime we heard it. i considered playing the drinking game where you take a drink everytime she said THAT tacky word. but then knew i'd be drunk and am not sure i should even drink since my stomach hasn't fully healed.
in all honesty, watching and hearing her made me want to drink. but i didnt and i couldnt because i have still been sick. i havent recovered fully from the IBS related ER visit and my stomach is still crampy everyday and blocked. i don't really know what is wrong. i am still sick and it is now two wks later.
palin was beyond annoying- her attitude, the way she rudely cut off the moderator to say that she would choose whether or not she wanted to answer a question and provide answers to whatever she wanted to share. she seemed to take complete control of the floor and do as she liked. it was completely disrespectful. she came off as flippant, defiant, snooty, and then would go off on tangents that lost me and had nothing to do with the question or topic at hand.
i have never felt that she is qualified to stand in the position of vice president of the united states let alone run for government, but after tonite, it is even MORE abundantly clear that she does not belong in any higher government position. most especially vice president.
she continually made smart condescending sarcastic remarks, smirked, winked at the crowd, and cut down joe biden. her attempt at wit and humor was nothing more than an attempt to undermine her opponent and failed miserably. it was neither funny or effective. you could feel that she was constantly trying her best to take small shots and upstage him during the debate.
half of what she proclaimed about obama was completely UNTRUE. i never understand why these people who probably have assistants and advisors who can get them anything they need to prepare for these speeches/debates, i do not understand why the hell palin doesn't do her research before stating a supposed fact that is obviously fictional + a lie.? hmm.
whatever the case, palin continued to show us how disconnected/out of touch she is with government policies and the average middle class american. she definitely does NOT represent the average american OR the average middle class person. yet she seemed to insinuate that she was equal to middle class. i don't think so.
i am still unconvinced that this woman has any intelligence or brain as she comes across as nothing more than an airhead or someone with something severely lacking. i felt her act was a show- a show for the world - fake, planned, scripted, practiced, coached--- a show to pull in the dummies and manipulate the voters to be swayed towards the palin/mccain ...oh i mean, mccain/palin ticket. sometimes i forget who's running as palin acts as though she is up for the president role rather than the VP. ha!
palin did mention she planned to change the role of VP and give herself more power if she were to get into office. how convenient for her. this is a very unsettling and disconcerting/scary thought. i sure as hell don't want a woman with such limited and close minded views running my life or heading our country! not to mention she is completely a female version of bush, completely clueless. how can anyone running for a government position as high as this, be so dumb? i don't get it!!
she keeps using the concept that i believe was obama's original campaign idea- he was using the 'change' motto, the entire 'change' theme way before Palin even entered the picture, way back in May. i know this because i watched debates in april and may with my fiance and because my fiance attended obama's rally which was filled with posters using the change theme [change we can believe in...etc] and that was this past spring. we didn't even know palin existed at that time. neither palin nor mccain have their own minds. that is why they are unable to come up with any thing original and have to steal others ideas.
she tackled the issue of climate control when asked if she believed in it by acknowledging it yet she refused to discuss the cause of it and was reluctant to attribute the problem as fully man-made. this points to the fact that she is not only ignorant but blind to the fact that in order to fix something one must tackle the origin and root of the problem. that's problem solving 101. and i find the whole notion of palin and mccain's suggested health care plan where each family gets a 5 thousand dollar credit towards health insurance to be ridiculous and unrealistic. does anyone realize how much doctors, hospitals, and medication cost these days? let's face it, this is nothing more than a gimmick to reel people in to vote for them. i guarantee you there are hidden fees and costs underneath it all that do not make it worthwhile and that would render the plan as useless for most.
[i constantly think of and flash back to one of my favorite satirical comedies 'election' during all of this. tracy flick and all the quirky characters trying to get elected and trying to sabatoge their competitors.]
sarah palin was beyond strange tonite during this widely anticipated and advertised debate ---in an Agitating - Grate on your NERVES- makes you want to SCREAM- kinda way.
in all honesty, watching and hearing her made me want to drink. but i didnt and i couldnt because i have still been sick. i havent recovered fully from the IBS related ER visit and my stomach is still crampy everyday and blocked. i don't really know what is wrong. i am still sick and it is now two wks later.
palin was beyond annoying- her attitude, the way she rudely cut off the moderator to say that she would choose whether or not she wanted to answer a question and provide answers to whatever she wanted to share. she seemed to take complete control of the floor and do as she liked. it was completely disrespectful. she came off as flippant, defiant, snooty, and then would go off on tangents that lost me and had nothing to do with the question or topic at hand.
i have never felt that she is qualified to stand in the position of vice president of the united states let alone run for government, but after tonite, it is even MORE abundantly clear that she does not belong in any higher government position. most especially vice president.
she continually made smart condescending sarcastic remarks, smirked, winked at the crowd, and cut down joe biden. her attempt at wit and humor was nothing more than an attempt to undermine her opponent and failed miserably. it was neither funny or effective. you could feel that she was constantly trying her best to take small shots and upstage him during the debate.
half of what she proclaimed about obama was completely UNTRUE. i never understand why these people who probably have assistants and advisors who can get them anything they need to prepare for these speeches/debates, i do not understand why the hell palin doesn't do her research before stating a supposed fact that is obviously fictional + a lie.? hmm.
whatever the case, palin continued to show us how disconnected/out of touch she is with government policies and the average middle class american. she definitely does NOT represent the average american OR the average middle class person. yet she seemed to insinuate that she was equal to middle class. i don't think so.
i am still unconvinced that this woman has any intelligence or brain as she comes across as nothing more than an airhead or someone with something severely lacking. i felt her act was a show- a show for the world - fake, planned, scripted, practiced, coached--- a show to pull in the dummies and manipulate the voters to be swayed towards the palin/mccain ...oh i mean, mccain/palin ticket. sometimes i forget who's running as palin acts as though she is up for the president role rather than the VP. ha!
palin did mention she planned to change the role of VP and give herself more power if she were to get into office. how convenient for her. this is a very unsettling and disconcerting/scary thought. i sure as hell don't want a woman with such limited and close minded views running my life or heading our country! not to mention she is completely a female version of bush, completely clueless. how can anyone running for a government position as high as this, be so dumb? i don't get it!!
she keeps using the concept that i believe was obama's original campaign idea- he was using the 'change' motto, the entire 'change' theme way before Palin even entered the picture, way back in May. i know this because i watched debates in april and may with my fiance and because my fiance attended obama's rally which was filled with posters using the change theme [change we can believe in...etc] and that was this past spring. we didn't even know palin existed at that time. neither palin nor mccain have their own minds. that is why they are unable to come up with any thing original and have to steal others ideas.
she tackled the issue of climate control when asked if she believed in it by acknowledging it yet she refused to discuss the cause of it and was reluctant to attribute the problem as fully man-made. this points to the fact that she is not only ignorant but blind to the fact that in order to fix something one must tackle the origin and root of the problem. that's problem solving 101. and i find the whole notion of palin and mccain's suggested health care plan where each family gets a 5 thousand dollar credit towards health insurance to be ridiculous and unrealistic. does anyone realize how much doctors, hospitals, and medication cost these days? let's face it, this is nothing more than a gimmick to reel people in to vote for them. i guarantee you there are hidden fees and costs underneath it all that do not make it worthwhile and that would render the plan as useless for most.
[i constantly think of and flash back to one of my favorite satirical comedies 'election' during all of this. tracy flick and all the quirky characters trying to get elected and trying to sabatoge their competitors.]
sarah palin was beyond strange tonite during this widely anticipated and advertised debate ---in an Agitating - Grate on your NERVES- makes you want to SCREAM- kinda way.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
we'll be watching closely. this is gonna be good.
we cannot wait for the palin vs. biden speech tonite!
we've already set the DVD-R to record.
it will be fascinating to see - as there is no way in hell she will be able to prove herself after all of
the disastrous interviews she's had in the past weeks.
the whole mccain/palin campaign is nothing but a circus and a phoney.
tonite's debate will definitely be a make it or break it kinda moment.
i predict the latter as she has consistently shown how little she knows and how there is truly a lack of intelligence, education, and brain cells in that head of hers.
she is bound to fall flat on her face.
we will be watching every minute of this.
we've been counting it down all week along with david gregory, chris matthews, keith olbermann + rachel maddow.
one of the political journalists mentioned yesterday that sarah palin was simply bush in LIPSTICK.
i could not agree more!
this is gonna be real FUN to watch.
...oh, the anticipation.
let the fireworks begin!!
we've already set the DVD-R to record.
it will be fascinating to see - as there is no way in hell she will be able to prove herself after all of
the disastrous interviews she's had in the past weeks.
the whole mccain/palin campaign is nothing but a circus and a phoney.
tonite's debate will definitely be a make it or break it kinda moment.
i predict the latter as she has consistently shown how little she knows and how there is truly a lack of intelligence, education, and brain cells in that head of hers.
she is bound to fall flat on her face.
we will be watching every minute of this.
we've been counting it down all week along with david gregory, chris matthews, keith olbermann + rachel maddow.
one of the political journalists mentioned yesterday that sarah palin was simply bush in LIPSTICK.
i could not agree more!
this is gonna be real FUN to watch.
...oh, the anticipation.
let the fireworks begin!!
Saturday, September 27, 2008
our world is enlightening.
wamu- seized by govt, bought by jp morgan.
that was my bank. quite unsettling although i know everyone says its nothing to worry over.
what is this world heading towards?
really, i shudder to think!
mccain's attempt to POSTPONE + bail-out of debate due to his supposed concern with economy.
McCain Halts Campaign Due to Economy
barack obama vs john mccain debate.
watched it in full. amazed at the inability for mccain to speak without stuttering, shifting, floundering, and waffling with his words, and body movements. was not very convicing and rather pathetic. he also used a sympathy tactic to get voters in regard to veterans and men of military service. this rather turned me off and it was so obvious it was and is a tactic.
the more he brags of his military service and patriotic spirit- the more desperate and pathetic he looks. im tired of him bragging of this and his use of the word 'maverick' on himself when its nothing more than a big fucking joke. he also never makes his point clearly. his answers always vague- he stumbles, rambles, never directly answering questions, wandering all over the place.
unlike mccain, obama had focused replies that answered what was asked and explained. mccain had answers without real solutions and as always was wishy washy in every sense of the word.
some of the stories he used and jokes ive heard so many times, that im tired of hearing it. no wonder he wanted to cancel, he is unable to come up with any new material. pathetic. had to hear the story of woman who gave military bracelet to him a year ago, AGAIN and also about how he hasn't been "miss congeniality" and is firm/aggressive. but all i see is a very wishy washy contradictive floundering fish, who is not decisive at all and doesn't know what he is talking about half the time + has little interest in the welfare of the average american . patriotism and american pride, to me , SHOULD involve caring about your neighbor, helping less fortunate, banding together. a whole group of people united is stronger than one person standing. it's called love thy neighbor as yourself.
mccain often resorted to low cuts to obama. while obama was honorable, respectable towards him. he made himself look so bad by doing this.
at one point, you could see mccain stewing, shifting uncomfortably and with humiliation because all the things obama said were said with calmness and strength. obama's strength is not reacting and not attacking no matter how spiteful the other opponent is. that is something to be admired.
mccain ended up looking mighty petty in my eyes and everyone else i know who's seen the debate, in my real life. obama was actually able to respond to mccain with honor and dignity and put him in his place without humiliation and low tactics of typical dirty politics.
i was disappointed that mccain seemed to detract the whole debate with his inability to stay focused and directly answer questions and often found myself restless and frustrated that he was not getting to the point or answering the question adequately enough.
i wanted to hear about mccains' choice of palin for VP when she supported earmarks which he cut down obama for doing and said he strongly opposed and voted against. what a fking hypocrite, he picked palin who obviously abused earmarks in the past and did it happily.
i won't go into how much of a joke i think palin is either just ive never seen a person [woman or man] so idiotic and moronic [ie katie couric's interview and charles gibson- palin: "i can see russia from my house/backyard?"]
you've got to be fucking kidding me!! this is who people want to run the US if the president dies. she is beyond stupid and airheadish and ignorant. she could actually be the equivalent of george bush now that i think about it who is about as smart as a donkey. ok, nuff said!
honestly, i don't get how anyone can actually want to vote for someone so unbelievably wishy-washy + vague. mccain picked his match in brainsmarts. palin and him have the size of a 'pea' in their heads. no joke.
i look forward to thursday's palin vs biden debate. i think he is going to annihilate her - our DVD-R is already set to record. i simply cannot wait!
Friday, September 5, 2008
meet me at the palinDrome.
PalinDrome is my latest guilty pleasure and obsession. I check it several times a day and Jimmy and I laugh hysterically over some of the entries and notes received in it. Most people who read it have similar mindsets to us [are democrats] and share the same brand of sarcastic parody styled humor! I've been reading the blog religiously from day one that I was alerted of its existence. Most commenters on there are aware it is a fake, a poke-fun style of blog. Some do seriously believe everything they read and take it as REAL but its not. and other noters are quick to point out to those people that the blog is simply a joke and a site of satire!
I'd love to write comments but dont think I could write anything quirky or clever and witty enough. I think Jimmy wants to start commenting on the site himself but is trying to come up with a clever name. He wants to use the asian guy name in Fargo, the one who is all over Frances McDormand like a perv and is dorky. Palin reminds Jimmy of Frances McDormand's character in Fargo, I think her name was Marge?
ps.
we watched the entire republican convention last nite [and pretty much every nite its been on] via CNN.
we both died laughing at this sign which i just knew would be posted first thing on palindrone blog. i was so right as the person took special time to point out what we had SO noticed last nite. the misspelled sign of MAVRICK in reference to john mccain.
see here:
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
occupation + consumption.
Quick list of what I've been occupied with and will write about on some future date:
Music:
The Kills- "Midnight Boom", The Decemberists- "The Crane Wife", Death Cab for Cutie's latest album- new fave song 'I will possess your heart'
Found this music post / video post via a favorite on a music site MOG which i belong to, highly amusing and entertaining.
See below:
How Siouxsie Sioux brought a tear to my eye..by Neill
Ailments:
Wisdom tooth dilemma and Jimmy pulled his back, so I took care of him all wkend. He is struggling with serious back pain and he doesn't know how it happened aside from a nap on the futon. It is so bad, its interfering with relaxing at home and he was in pain all wkend and couldn't do anything. He has a dr appt this Thurs. I guess this is what happens when you get older. lol. I feel old right now, all these problems. It does suck! I am hoping he gets better as it's been horrible for him and I hate to see him suffer so.
Film:
Under the same moon [mexican subtitled film- sad, moving, relevant to today's political issues, about mother and child- the bonds]
TV:
Latest new hilarious tv show that debuted, we discovered via VSL and our BBC cable station IS Gavin and Stacey- which I highly recommend to fans of the office [bbc] and quirky comedy like that.
News:
Tropical storms/hurricanes Fay, Gustav, and newly formed Ike and Josephine keep us riveted to local news, cnn, msnbc, and weather channel constantly. What can i say? Somex it's how you get when you are a Floridian. Those unfamiliar with constant hurricanes or living in a state with major hurricanes every year, probably can't or won't relate but that's how it is when you live in this sort of state.
CourtTV/ Current murder trial:
The Sean Fitzpatrick murder trial in Boston ended in a mistrial after he took the stand in defense of himself. The accused guy was older, weird, charistmatic, obviously charming but with an air of cockiness, arrogance and self righteousness. He seemed to be guilty but the lack of evidence/ dna was unable to sway the judge to come to any judgement. They simply felt too conflicted and that's why it ended with a hung jury. It will be retried and Phil Spektor's retrial begins at the end of September which will be of great interest especially since I spent months watching it last year and like everyone else was disappointed when he got off scott-free when we all know this man is psychotic and he did kill her. He's guilty! So now maybe justice will come this time around!
Politics:
Obama; democratic national convention last week [jimmy was more obsessed with this than i. its just since we live together, I kind of end up being sucked into things I normally would not take the time to watch on my own HA]
I am for obama though and I found most of the speeches very inspiring + moving but could have done with the HOURS a nite for an entire wk of constant CNN coverage that I was forced to watch because Jimmy couldn't miss one minute of any of it. He had to be in on each and every action -- thank god he has slowed down this week with the republican conven. - true its because he is not for the republican party as I am not either, but still if he had his chance, I think he'd watch it 24/7- he just knows I will explode on him if I have to watch another week of political junk nite and day. There is a certain amount of anything I can take and I'm sorry but my tolerance is LOW.
TV/Olympics:
Since I was stuck watching olympics everyday for almost a month becos of HIS obsession with that and if I complained over this and how it dominated our tv, I was ridiculed because I am UN-American to not be "INTO" the olympics. Whatev- LOL I have to disagree with that. I am not into sports period. So what?!!
To each his own, right?
I did enjoy the diving and gymnastics but when someone wants to watch 4-6 hrs of olympics everyday for 3 weeks, I hardly think u can expect anyone to be enthusiastic for very long. It gets boring and begins to feel like you have no choice but to watch that.
If I wouldn't watch it, he'd simply record it on our DVD-R but he'd have to watch it the next day to keep up with the latest olympics scores and to not use all the dvd r space up- so it wouldn't matter. I would still be stuck watching it the next day. I got aggravated a lot simply because he dominates the tv for his sports games on a regular basis, then it was olympics and now its politics. I just get irritated but that's life I guess. He isn't very good at taking turns or sharing and we get into frequent fights over that because he is often selfish in my opinion and lacks the ability to see past himself or to even offer compromise. I often have to get angry and fight to get any positive outcome. It is frustrating sometimes.
Wedding Planning:
*We will have a meeting with florist to finalize ideas and put downpayment down in mid september.
*We have an appt with Alessi bakery for wedding cake same weekend. We must also go to David's Bridal for alterations on my bridal gown during the last weekend of September.
*This month, also need to buy: clear contacts, bridal strapless full slip for gown etc.
*Research party favors and reception decor, send out invites by end of month, decide if there will be any wedding shower at all dependent upon his mother.
*We also investigated hotels near the wedding chapel/reception hall for our upcoming wedding, for our out of town guests that will be here and will need a place to stay the nite of the wedding nearby. We came up with the following, but in the end we chose the Oldsmar one for our out of town guests (we will stay in clearwater in sand key hotel)- It's the bolded Courtyard at Marriott one and looks pretty nice. We've reserved ten rooms for our out of town guests and if there are less than ten guests, we can lower the amount of rooms we are holding, accdg to receptionist.
Here's the list of the hotels within 10 miles of the chapel and reception hall. The one in Tarpon Springs would be by the sponge docks if anyone wants something interesting to do on Saturday. There are two in Oldsmar that I think are right by the big flea market, so maybe a few of you would be interested in that. I'll have to see if it would be open that weekend, but I imagine it would.Blue Moon Inn - Dunedin (1.59 miles/approx. $99)http://www.thebluemooninn.com/Best Western Lake Tarpon - Tarpon Springs (4.13 miles/$94)http://www.bestwesternlaketarpon.com/index.htmHoliday Inn Express - Clearwater North (4.76 miles/$119)http://www.hiexpress.com/h/d/ex/1/en/hotel/ddnfl?rpb=hotel&crUrl=/h/d/ex/1/en/hotelsearchresultsComfort Inn - Clearwater (4.8 miles/$88)http://www.clearwatercomfortinn.com/Best Western Yacht Harbor Inn - Dunedin (5.11 miles/$112)http://www.yachtharborinn.com/Courtyard by Marriott - Oldsmar (7.21 miles/$99)http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/tpaol-courtyard-tampa-oldsmar/Residence Inn by Marriott - Oldsmar (7.22 miles/$109)http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/tpaod-residence-inn-tampa-oldsmar/Fairfield Inn & Suites - Clearwater Bayside (8.71 miles/$99)http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/tpacr-fairfield-inn-and-suites-clearwater-bayside/Belleview Biltmore Resort - Belleview (9.63 miles/$99)http://www.belleviewbiltmore.com/
I'm not sure where we're staying yet, but it might be the Sheraton Sand Key Resort in Clearwater. It's a little more pricey ($200 or so) and about 9 miles away. (http://www.sheratonsandkey.com/index.php)
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Labor Day:
I spent labor day sick, but so filled with anxiety [had a wedding day anxiety provoking dream], that i put together all 75 wedding invitations following correct model setup via box and putting in appropriate gift registries [was 25 short on gift registry cards so not all invitations are complete].
I felt so relieved for about ten mins like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders, chest, heart....but it wasn't long before that feeling disappeared and was replaced with renewed anxiety/worry, stress. Now, all we have to do is print directions, add them, add postage to reply envelopes, and then hand address them. YAY take one step forward, fall two steps back. Gotta love that feeling!
Honeymoon planning:
We met with travel agent at borders in tampa on friday. St. Lucia is way out of our budget and so is Turks and Cacaos. They are close to four thousand dollars even w/ discounts. So it looks like we are stuck going to jamaica, looking at Whitehouse Sandals all inclusive resort which Jimmy has hesitated on because he says its too expensive at $2800 which includes 5 nites, plane fare for two, hotel for two, all food, liquor, etc.
I hardly think its expensive and think its unrealistic to think u can find anything under 2000 that includes all that in the carribeans. he complains that i didn't want to take a cruise which is only a few hundred dollars. sorry but thats not romantic to me, being stuck on a ship with people i don't know is unromantic, limiting, claustrophobic.
My idea of romance and relaxation on a vacation far away is being able to have privacy, plan your time as u like, plan your days without anyones rules , get up and go to bed when you like unlike a cruise. In any case, he had reserved our hotel room and pkg price with the travel agent over the weekend with my approval. She wrote today saying the reservation ends tomorrow and money must be put down to seal package and book our trip if we are to have one for our honeymoon so i mentioned this on the phone when he called on the way home from work.
We got in an argument when i mentioned it as he told me he didn't know if he wanted to go all the way with it [after we wasted all our time talking with her and he told her we were seriously interested and reserved the room etc- this made NO sense to me], and that it seemed unaffordable to him even though we got major discounts since right now flights are free and you get a free nite plus a honeymoon suite on first floor upgrade for a limited time if u go with sandals, so thats what we were getting. It normally costs over a thousand dollars more than this. But anyway, he began complaining saying maybe we could find another deal cheaper somewhere else online. I said you've got to be kidding me!
We've been looking online for six mos now, all of them are close to this price range given by the agent if not mroe than this and the ones NOT all inclusive simply are not worth it and will end up more in the end. But no, he had to insist he knows more than I. And then he went into how we could have an affordable trip if i wasn't so picky and we went on a cruise.
I'm not even going to go into all the anger I felt then. This is supposed to be my future husband's gift to me -his wife. It is supposed to be romantic, a gift. It is supposed to be something I love. Is taking me on a cheap cruise that makes me sea sick and i find UNrelaxing and unromantic and NOT fun what you do to show your future wife you love her and she is special? I don't think so. I blew up, cried, then apologized after hanging up.
Later when he got home, we did look up prices on Jamaica Sandals pkgs. It pretty much proved what I had said. I think he was resigned because he wrote the travel agent saying he'd like to discuss booking the trip but there is still some hesitation because he wants to know the full price with tax which makes me feel he doesn't know how to finalize anything and is afraid, looking for an excuse not to make that decison yet. I don't know.
I didn't say anything but in our earlier argument I told him that I was resigned to have no honeymoon cos it clearly was too much for him, too much for me to ask and it seemed I was undeserving with the way he acted of something romantic, nice, and special. He said he wanted that for me and said he didnt feel this way but his actions/reactions tell a different story and I feel as I do because of how he makes me feel. No one should be this stressed over a honeymoon, most importantly, the bride to be. It makes me feel guilty for wanting to have and get what most normal people in this world get when they get married. It makes me angry that I am made to feel this way. i have a hard time coping with emotions under any sort of duress or stress and wonder if i ever can get any better than this. Most of the time, it seems hopeless and I feel it, inside. Hopeless.
I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think.
-Rumi
Music:
The Kills- "Midnight Boom", The Decemberists- "The Crane Wife", Death Cab for Cutie's latest album- new fave song 'I will possess your heart'
Found this music post / video post via a favorite on a music site MOG which i belong to, highly amusing and entertaining.
See below:
How Siouxsie Sioux brought a tear to my eye..by Neill
Ailments:
Wisdom tooth dilemma and Jimmy pulled his back, so I took care of him all wkend. He is struggling with serious back pain and he doesn't know how it happened aside from a nap on the futon. It is so bad, its interfering with relaxing at home and he was in pain all wkend and couldn't do anything. He has a dr appt this Thurs. I guess this is what happens when you get older. lol. I feel old right now, all these problems. It does suck! I am hoping he gets better as it's been horrible for him and I hate to see him suffer so.
Film:
Under the same moon [mexican subtitled film- sad, moving, relevant to today's political issues, about mother and child- the bonds]
TV:
Latest new hilarious tv show that debuted, we discovered via VSL and our BBC cable station IS Gavin and Stacey- which I highly recommend to fans of the office [bbc] and quirky comedy like that.
News:
Tropical storms/hurricanes Fay, Gustav, and newly formed Ike and Josephine keep us riveted to local news, cnn, msnbc, and weather channel constantly. What can i say? Somex it's how you get when you are a Floridian. Those unfamiliar with constant hurricanes or living in a state with major hurricanes every year, probably can't or won't relate but that's how it is when you live in this sort of state.
CourtTV/ Current murder trial:
The Sean Fitzpatrick murder trial in Boston ended in a mistrial after he took the stand in defense of himself. The accused guy was older, weird, charistmatic, obviously charming but with an air of cockiness, arrogance and self righteousness. He seemed to be guilty but the lack of evidence/ dna was unable to sway the judge to come to any judgement. They simply felt too conflicted and that's why it ended with a hung jury. It will be retried and Phil Spektor's retrial begins at the end of September which will be of great interest especially since I spent months watching it last year and like everyone else was disappointed when he got off scott-free when we all know this man is psychotic and he did kill her. He's guilty! So now maybe justice will come this time around!
Politics:
Obama; democratic national convention last week [jimmy was more obsessed with this than i. its just since we live together, I kind of end up being sucked into things I normally would not take the time to watch on my own HA]
I am for obama though and I found most of the speeches very inspiring + moving but could have done with the HOURS a nite for an entire wk of constant CNN coverage that I was forced to watch because Jimmy couldn't miss one minute of any of it. He had to be in on each and every action -- thank god he has slowed down this week with the republican conven. - true its because he is not for the republican party as I am not either, but still if he had his chance, I think he'd watch it 24/7- he just knows I will explode on him if I have to watch another week of political junk nite and day. There is a certain amount of anything I can take and I'm sorry but my tolerance is LOW.
TV/Olympics:
Since I was stuck watching olympics everyday for almost a month becos of HIS obsession with that and if I complained over this and how it dominated our tv, I was ridiculed because I am UN-American to not be "INTO" the olympics. Whatev- LOL I have to disagree with that. I am not into sports period. So what?!!
To each his own, right?
I did enjoy the diving and gymnastics but when someone wants to watch 4-6 hrs of olympics everyday for 3 weeks, I hardly think u can expect anyone to be enthusiastic for very long. It gets boring and begins to feel like you have no choice but to watch that.
If I wouldn't watch it, he'd simply record it on our DVD-R but he'd have to watch it the next day to keep up with the latest olympics scores and to not use all the dvd r space up- so it wouldn't matter. I would still be stuck watching it the next day. I got aggravated a lot simply because he dominates the tv for his sports games on a regular basis, then it was olympics and now its politics. I just get irritated but that's life I guess. He isn't very good at taking turns or sharing and we get into frequent fights over that because he is often selfish in my opinion and lacks the ability to see past himself or to even offer compromise. I often have to get angry and fight to get any positive outcome. It is frustrating sometimes.
Wedding Planning:
*We will have a meeting with florist to finalize ideas and put downpayment down in mid september.
*We have an appt with Alessi bakery for wedding cake same weekend. We must also go to David's Bridal for alterations on my bridal gown during the last weekend of September.
*This month, also need to buy: clear contacts, bridal strapless full slip for gown etc.
*Research party favors and reception decor, send out invites by end of month, decide if there will be any wedding shower at all dependent upon his mother.
*We also investigated hotels near the wedding chapel/reception hall for our upcoming wedding, for our out of town guests that will be here and will need a place to stay the nite of the wedding nearby. We came up with the following, but in the end we chose the Oldsmar one for our out of town guests (we will stay in clearwater in sand key hotel)- It's the bolded Courtyard at Marriott one and looks pretty nice. We've reserved ten rooms for our out of town guests and if there are less than ten guests, we can lower the amount of rooms we are holding, accdg to receptionist.
Here's the list of the hotels within 10 miles of the chapel and reception hall. The one in Tarpon Springs would be by the sponge docks if anyone wants something interesting to do on Saturday. There are two in Oldsmar that I think are right by the big flea market, so maybe a few of you would be interested in that. I'll have to see if it would be open that weekend, but I imagine it would.Blue Moon Inn - Dunedin (1.59 miles/approx. $99)http://www.thebluemooninn.com/Best Western Lake Tarpon - Tarpon Springs (4.13 miles/$94)http://www.bestwesternlaketarpon.com/index.htmHoliday Inn Express - Clearwater North (4.76 miles/$119)http://www.hiexpress.com/h/d/ex/1/en/hotel/ddnfl?rpb=hotel&crUrl=/h/d/ex/1/en/hotelsearchresultsComfort Inn - Clearwater (4.8 miles/$88)http://www.clearwatercomfortinn.com/Best Western Yacht Harbor Inn - Dunedin (5.11 miles/$112)http://www.yachtharborinn.com/Courtyard by Marriott - Oldsmar (7.21 miles/$99)http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/tpaol-courtyard-tampa-oldsmar/Residence Inn by Marriott - Oldsmar (7.22 miles/$109)http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/tpaod-residence-inn-tampa-oldsmar/Fairfield Inn & Suites - Clearwater Bayside (8.71 miles/$99)http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/tpacr-fairfield-inn-and-suites-clearwater-bayside/Belleview Biltmore Resort - Belleview (9.63 miles/$99)http://www.belleviewbiltmore.com/
I'm not sure where we're staying yet, but it might be the Sheraton Sand Key Resort in Clearwater. It's a little more pricey ($200 or so) and about 9 miles away. (http://www.sheratonsandkey.com/index.php)
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Labor Day:
I spent labor day sick, but so filled with anxiety [had a wedding day anxiety provoking dream], that i put together all 75 wedding invitations following correct model setup via box and putting in appropriate gift registries [was 25 short on gift registry cards so not all invitations are complete].
I felt so relieved for about ten mins like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders, chest, heart....but it wasn't long before that feeling disappeared and was replaced with renewed anxiety/worry, stress. Now, all we have to do is print directions, add them, add postage to reply envelopes, and then hand address them. YAY take one step forward, fall two steps back. Gotta love that feeling!
Honeymoon planning:
We met with travel agent at borders in tampa on friday. St. Lucia is way out of our budget and so is Turks and Cacaos. They are close to four thousand dollars even w/ discounts. So it looks like we are stuck going to jamaica, looking at Whitehouse Sandals all inclusive resort which Jimmy has hesitated on because he says its too expensive at $2800 which includes 5 nites, plane fare for two, hotel for two, all food, liquor, etc.
I hardly think its expensive and think its unrealistic to think u can find anything under 2000 that includes all that in the carribeans. he complains that i didn't want to take a cruise which is only a few hundred dollars. sorry but thats not romantic to me, being stuck on a ship with people i don't know is unromantic, limiting, claustrophobic.
My idea of romance and relaxation on a vacation far away is being able to have privacy, plan your time as u like, plan your days without anyones rules , get up and go to bed when you like unlike a cruise. In any case, he had reserved our hotel room and pkg price with the travel agent over the weekend with my approval. She wrote today saying the reservation ends tomorrow and money must be put down to seal package and book our trip if we are to have one for our honeymoon so i mentioned this on the phone when he called on the way home from work.
We got in an argument when i mentioned it as he told me he didn't know if he wanted to go all the way with it [after we wasted all our time talking with her and he told her we were seriously interested and reserved the room etc- this made NO sense to me], and that it seemed unaffordable to him even though we got major discounts since right now flights are free and you get a free nite plus a honeymoon suite on first floor upgrade for a limited time if u go with sandals, so thats what we were getting. It normally costs over a thousand dollars more than this. But anyway, he began complaining saying maybe we could find another deal cheaper somewhere else online. I said you've got to be kidding me!
We've been looking online for six mos now, all of them are close to this price range given by the agent if not mroe than this and the ones NOT all inclusive simply are not worth it and will end up more in the end. But no, he had to insist he knows more than I. And then he went into how we could have an affordable trip if i wasn't so picky and we went on a cruise.
I'm not even going to go into all the anger I felt then. This is supposed to be my future husband's gift to me -his wife. It is supposed to be romantic, a gift. It is supposed to be something I love. Is taking me on a cheap cruise that makes me sea sick and i find UNrelaxing and unromantic and NOT fun what you do to show your future wife you love her and she is special? I don't think so. I blew up, cried, then apologized after hanging up.
Later when he got home, we did look up prices on Jamaica Sandals pkgs. It pretty much proved what I had said. I think he was resigned because he wrote the travel agent saying he'd like to discuss booking the trip but there is still some hesitation because he wants to know the full price with tax which makes me feel he doesn't know how to finalize anything and is afraid, looking for an excuse not to make that decison yet. I don't know.
I didn't say anything but in our earlier argument I told him that I was resigned to have no honeymoon cos it clearly was too much for him, too much for me to ask and it seemed I was undeserving with the way he acted of something romantic, nice, and special. He said he wanted that for me and said he didnt feel this way but his actions/reactions tell a different story and I feel as I do because of how he makes me feel. No one should be this stressed over a honeymoon, most importantly, the bride to be. It makes me feel guilty for wanting to have and get what most normal people in this world get when they get married. It makes me angry that I am made to feel this way. i have a hard time coping with emotions under any sort of duress or stress and wonder if i ever can get any better than this. Most of the time, it seems hopeless and I feel it, inside. Hopeless.
I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think.
-Rumi
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