been struggling with asthma [the on and off hot and cold weather triggers it, it seems] and lately the daytime upon awaking is a struggle, and then by nitetime it returns forcefully so i cannot sleep or do anything with much focus. i am dropping off my prescription for rescue inhaler tomorrow as my advair seems to be doing close to nothing in preventing a feeling, uprising of asthma attack.]
other than that, still susceptible to IBS, stomach sickness attacks. doesn't seem i can control or predict it and happens at least once to two times a week. it wears me out. other than that i've just been completely swamped, our wedding is only weeks away and our entire weekend was comprised of wedding oriented meetings, goals, and chores. we've got a lot done but still so much more to go. i'm afraid the rest of this month is going to be packed this way if NOT more packed than this, as it comes closer, so i will not be able to keep up regularly on diary reading and noting but will when i find moments of spare time and/or energy to do so. i also have a LOT i still want to share in here in regard to what we have been up to and am so behind that i don't know where to begin. i just haven't had time to write here. i really want to though and am going to first thing when my asthma lets up a bit and ive had a good nite sleep.
we did have a wonderful and full weekend with lots of exciting things happening-- i started writing about this in a roughdraft entry but haven't finished. i also have lots of pix from the past month to share, bridal shower, my birthday pix and more details on that day/ bday gifts etc. [november 1st] as well as a host of many things i am eager to write about when i get the time to do so!!!
other things to write about:
1. last wk's bridal gown alteration appt [have another alteration appt on the 17th, then believe it or not, another appt before my wedding day - that means four separate alteration appts TOTAL in this month alone. they said the beading and applique work is so intricate that it is a harder job than most and cannot be done that easily] jimmy got me some new sketchers at an outlet when he got himself some for work. they are really cute [pix later]
2. we had our appt for our marriage license [really meaningful for both of us and bonding with our love] + then right after raced to make it in time to a mini party with j's coworkers at an irish bar near his work. that was this past friday. it was a really great day and FULL day. that's why ive not been able to write. every day since friday has been so full of NON stop things to do, that I have not had time to go online or log on. I haven't even hardly been home and usually have been so exhausted by the time I am here again, that I just want to relax or go to bed, not look at any computer screens LOL i have begun a full emotional entry on my friday in a private entry but its merely a roughdraft right now, and also about the mini happy hour get together we had with his coworkers which was a blast. i think this was one of those nites that i was totally socially "ON" which is unusual since a lot of the time i am reclusive/shy. i think i was pretty manic that nite but i had a blast and it was exhilirating/ lots of fun, more on this tomorrow!
3. life is full, but life is GOOD :)
4. must write all about my special birthday weekend a few wks ago [nov 1st] which was also a memorable day/nite. i didn't get to write about the best part of it or the birthday shopping i did and the gifts i got but i will this week and ive got some nice pix to share as well - later [maybe tomorrow] we checked out the grandopening of a brand new luxurious outdoor mall called wiregrass on the outskirts of my city, newly built and elaborate, beautiful landscape. got some pix, that was my bday nite. again, ive been meaning to write on all this but i just havent had enough time or energy as of late so i am lagging way behind in everything in my life esp writing and keeping up here, sorry!
5. macy's - best buy shopping/ jimmy's present for my birthday, new music etc.
6. latest favorite documentary/ indie film- inspirational, must see- write on this later.
7. ordered clear contacts for my upcoming wedding
8. specialty m and m favors arrived, pretty. more gifts and favors for wedding bought and received by mail.
9. spent all saturday making playlists on notebook for wedding reception based on my taste, j's taste and the two of our taste since dating which is unique in music style. we got sucked up into this, excited and immersed in it all. more on this and the choices later in the week, still a work in progress but it IS going to be cool.
want to share with everyone his song to me or our couple dance will be absolutely beautiful. i will write about it and the artist/title later when i write about this entire topic. i will also share the song via music site or something. i can't wait to share but not right now, as i don't have enough time and need sleep!!
9. laurie fruitcake/nutcase florist contradictive behavior, final meeting sunday, and finally HOPE she is out of our lives after this meeting and out of our hair so we can breathe w/o stress before our actual wedding. our meeting yesterday.
10. new dilemma for wedding gown, temp. change with colder weather ensures i need to find a sweater or jacket. spent all day looking. hard to match ivory gown, that is formal couture and be able to afford it on my near to nothing budget. think i will find a beautiful knit neutral colored sweater in those 70's style knits that are out this season and are one of my fave trends and i have seen several i want right now. am considering GAP even though its 78 bucks for the one im looking at. i have a coupon so may get that this week when i take a trip back to the mall. i searched all over and it was the best possibility.
11. one good thing tho despite all stress, ive managed to stay off coca cola entirely since the ER visit, i only drink gingerale or gatoraid currently. and ive lost more weight in the past week and since i last posted pix. not a lot but enough to notice it now, ive lost a size or two in my waist/hips. its become more noticeable in a flattering way. i am pretty happy about that.
i now weigh 98.
after florist appt yesterday- i had fun trying on clothes, even more since ive lost weight and it really showed this wkend in the dressing room. i couldn't believe it when i tried on a gorgeous strapless little black dress at Express in a size zero and it fit perfectly. [i haven't been able to wear that size in a few years now since i had gained weight. guess i really have lost a substantial amount. that makes me so happy!]
i will elaborate on above top eleven things i mentioned in my summarized list of latest stuff i want to write more on--- hopefully when later on today or later tonite. after ive slept and caught up on some energy AND hopefully after this asthma feeling has lifted some. it feels like my chest/lungs are being crushed. i absolutely hate this and have felt this way on and off for a few wks now but its been more severe since feeling upset by some ignorant person on friday [a stranger] which is not worth going into because it just makes my asthma worse, and accelerated anxiety/agitation and pissed off feelings that i need to stay away from.
below are some recent photos at the end of October prior to my bday- I weighed around 101 pounds there and it was after I first lost weight after being in the ER for stomach problems stress related- more than likely. Before the ER sickness, i was b/t 107 and 110 pounds.
these are my latest pix upon visiting my parents which I am pretty proud of :)
More pix when I have more time and more on what is currently going on or what we've been up to lately or have accomplished in regard to our wedding which is this month.
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