shadowplay [they keep calling me]

in my darkest hours, i've breathed in and consumed every emotion explored in each and every song here.

it was how i felt and over the past twenty years where i've floated in and out of existence.



hear this


http://www.playlist.com/playlist/10952861707/standalone




unknown pleasures -

favorite cover art album of all time above. love the abstract and its still one of the most creative, coveted.

these two recent films have caused a heavy revival of both jimmy and i's love of Joy Divison. Both of our teenage highschool roots go back to this group.

i remember getting up everyday for school and listening to Joy Division's Substance- Best Of cassette tape in my stereo as i got ready for school. it gave me the adrenaline rush i needed and the motivation to push myself thru another day.

i was 16 years old and it was 1988.

music was one of the main things that kept me sane during a particularly oppressive time in my life where i hated school because i didnt belong and was seen as dark and strange for being new wave/goth but revelled / rebelled in that feeling at the same time. i was for the most part a nonconformist and artsy. i felt misunderstood- and very alone back then- and i just did not fit into conventional society or with any social popular clique of any kind- [i still really don't].

i felt very dark, with very little light to follow..back then.

it was a crushing time.

To the centre of the city where all roads meet - waiting for you /To the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank - searching for you/Moving through the silence without motion - waiting for you/ In a room with a window in the corner I found truth/In the shadowplay, acting out your own death - knowing no more/As the assassins all grouped in four lines, dancing on the floor/ And with cold steel, odour on their bodies, made a move to connect/I could only stare in disbelief as the crowds all left/I did everything, everything I wanted to/I let them use you for their own ends/ To the centre of the city in the night - waiting for you /To the centre of the city in the night - waiting for you

-joy division

Anton Corbijn's Control- Means to an End!

Tonite, we are watching the biopic that came out this past year called "control" about both of our fave band of the past!

Joy Division

It is about lead singer Ian Curtis' life, who committed suicide and seemed to suffer from some form of depression or mental illness.

Later the band became New Order- another band we both listened to a lot growing up as teens and both of us have a lot of Joy division and new order cds. these two bands are like my roots and have always been close to my heart.

I will share some mini reviews I scanned on 'Control' in the past few mos which I gathered from a magazine I subscribe to. There have been a lot of great write ups on this film.


See Nylon article below, published in 2008:


A Means to an End.